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this morning, I woke up unhappy with reality.
everything was too harsh, too imperfect, too grating.
maybe it was the contrast between the dreams I had last night and the way the world looked in the morning.
maybe it was the three pints of beer and the oily onion rings I had for dinner.
maybe it was the perpetually overcast skies.
maybe it was the natural rebound from the wonderful time I had last weekend celebrating tom’s birthday.
maybe it was the effects on my psyche from listening to Dr. Kevin Warwick last night. this guy is a reseacher in cybernetics, and wants to be the first cyborg. he has had two implants in his left arm, one of which allows him to link up his nervous system and a computer to control things by activating his motor neurons. bizarre and fascinating. at one point in his reasearch he put his nervous system on the internet, gave it an ip address and everything. a little bit frightening…I don’t want to be a cyborg.
maybe it has something to do with the fact that I need more structure and focus in my life. I’m not used to having to impose this on my life myself, I am more comfortable with having others define deadlines and projects for me.
maybe it was a comment made last night, while we were walking over to the pub for the pints. the comment was about why people choose to do certain things. Warwick had talked about wanting to be able to simply download knowledge into people’s brains, as it would be a more effective means of communication than interpreting words. I said that it would feel strangely unsatisfying to have this knowledge, because it is the things I really had to struggle to learn that I appreciate the most. tom’s boss said this is why people choose to do certain things…the person who has trouble arriving on time goes into scheduling, the person who is unsatisfied with his human body and it’s limitations goes into cybernetics. what does this say about psychologists?
maybe it’s just that I woke up irritable and couldn’t shake it immediately. nothing more.
